It has been such a long time since I wrote a real journal entry (about my news and not just about some quizz). This is the first entry I'm posting in 2017, yay! My news:
So let me start by saying, I do wish the last year closed well for everyone, and even more so I hope that the new year has been kind to you so far.
It has definately been kind to me, and I am grateful for that.
I know I have been very inactive in here and during that time I took the chance to think about what I truly want to do with my drawing skills in the future.
I definately plan on investing time to become better at art, the thing is, I still haven't passed the point where I just practice and experiment on different styles.
You can tell since my gallery is pretty random... I like testing myself in different stuff both in digital and traditional art, both in fan art and personal stuff.
But I am not sure what I am going to do when things get serious. For a start, I wonder if I should keep uploading all of my art in this account or make a new one when I
get more dedicated in drawing... and if not, I think it would probably be a good idea to decide what the artistic direction of this account will be.
I surely like drawing fan art and cartoonish style, though my ambition is for more than that, even if I still don't have the skills I would like in order to make that happen...
And even for fan art, I don't dedicate as much time as I would like to, to make it as awesome as I want.
Also, I don't think I will be writing fanfiction any time soon (if ever at all) as I have completely lost my interest in materializing ideas and scenarios into stories.
I think of removing the fanfiction folder, as it is all in my Fanfiction.net account (under the same username) and it simply reflects a hobby I don't practice anymore (after all,
fanfiction is not really popular in Deviantart anyway).
Other than that, everything in my life is slowly falling into place the way I wanted.
I stopped stressing so much about my university obligations, as a fellow student helped me see some alternatives I had not thought of before.
I have been ridiculously postponing the completion and presentation of my thesis, not because it's such a hard thing to do but because I simply
have lost interest in it and don't feel like doing it at all. I have made some progress over time and I keep trying to organize myself in making it work
(as I realize it's not just about the thesis, it has become very hard for me to do things I'm not in the mood for, and that's hell for my routine) but it is
definately good to know that in case I don't make it to the deadline, there are other good options down the road.
Watching my brother at the very early stages of a possibly amazing career surely is motivating.
And, of course, a great thing for my psychological boost is the fact that I started a relationship with my crush of the past months, right before Christmas.
We have only been together a little more than a month, but it's the greatest month I've had in a relationship. I've never let someone step into my comfort zone
so fast before, and it never felt so natural either...
...she is amazing. The tag game:
So, apparently, my friend
found this thing before I did and decided to rub it on my face by tagging me.
Oh, my. I have to play a tagging game. And everyone knows what a torture this is for me.
(Don't just stand there, go check her account.
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My friends here know me as Lydia. I have two names but I would rather not say as much.
Single or taken:
Birthday: February 7th
Hair colour: Brown
Eye colour: Brown
Height: About 160 cm
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: ...I'll say bisexual. I don't really get along with labels though.
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What kind of shampoo do you use right now?: For my hair? Well, currently I'm using some nourishing shampoo for itchy scalp... (good thing it smells great too).
Who is the last person that called you?: My mom.
How many buddies are online right now?: No one.
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So much to choose from. I'll say, anything that tastes like meat, chocolate, interesting sauces and dressings. And coffee. And a bunch of other things.
Girls names: Hmm... a bunch. Too bored to list now.
Subjects in school: In my school years, I used to love biology, always. In my uni years I loved microbiology and diseases stuff, and everything about anatomy, physiology etc.
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Given anyone a bath?:
Just my pet...
Smoked?: I've had two or three puffs over time (from other people's cigarettes) but I really hate the flavour, along with the health issues. Other than that, I've smoked nargile but it's been a long time since then.
Bungee jumped?: Nope... it's something to erase off of my list though, at some point.
Made yourself throw up?:
Nope. If I have to throw up, it comes naturally.
No, but I would love to!
Ever been in love?:
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?:
Not that I recall...
Pictured your crush naked?:
Actually seen your crush naked?:
Well, not while they were still my crush. In the relationship, yes.
Cried when someone died?: Yup...
Everyone lies from time to time.
Fallen for your best friend?: Not really.
More times than I care to admit.
Used someone?: Nope...
Done something you regret?:
Of course. Who hasn't?
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Clothes: PJs and a T-shirt, both dark blue with some designs.
My awesome Axe deodorant.
(Men's deodorants are awesome, okay?)
Cd in player: I don't use CDs.
DVD in player: Nope.
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You touched: My mom, I think.
Either my girlfriend or my mom, I don't really remember...
You IMed: My girlfriend.
You yelled at:
...it has been such a long time since I yelled at someone that I am not sure
though I think it was my brother.
(I can get used to saying that).
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Understanding: I like to think so, yeah.
Arrogant: I don't think so.
Hungry: You bet. I'm so vandalising the fridge after I finish writing this journal...
Other people tell me so, though I feel really dumb at times...
Moody: Very often.
...when I finally decide to get to work, yeah.
What is "organized?" Can you eat it?
Nope but working on it.
...I can be quite a handful sometimes.
Obsessed: I am not obsessed with things, though I can be obsessive.
Angry: Not in general.
Happy: ...in general yes, but there is always room for more happiness.
Trusting: It depends...
The same gender as you are internally: Yup.
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...dude, that's a strong word.
Slap?: Many people but let's not get into that.
Get really wasted with?:
Nooooope, I don't do that anymore.
Get high with: I've never been high.
Talk to offline:
Right now, no one. I just talked to my girlfriend and now I want my peace.
Talk to online: Same.
Sex it up with:
...make an educated guess.
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In the morning I: See what time it is and decide whether if I go back to sleep or get up and make some sweet elixir of life (aka coffee).
In the air
I dream about: Being a great artist, travelling to the places I want to, learning more stuff/aquiring new skills, earning money doing something that truly interests me, sharing these moments with the love of my life...
Didn't you already ask that...?
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: Depends.
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Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi Twist FTW.
Flowers or candy: Candy.
Tall or short: I am fine with either.
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Makes you laugh the most: A friend who is like a big sister to me, and my girlfriend.
Makes you smile: All of my friends...
Gives you a funny feeling when you talk to him/her?: Currently, my girlfriend.
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Find yourself thinking of the boy/girl you like for a long period of time?:
Dude, I think about EVERYONE.
All the time.
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to message you?:
...hey, if they're gonna send, they're gonna send. No need to lose sleep over it.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I have thought about it sometimes but I can never decide. I would like to see what it's like though.
Wish you were younger: Yes, if I had the mind I have now. I am almost 25 and there are so many things I would like to have done already...
Cry because someone said something to you?:
More times than I can count, even if it wasn't necessarily anything insulting.
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Of times I have had my heart broken:
Uhh... I'm not really counting them.
Of hearts I have broken:
...what's the point in counting these things anyway.
Of guys I've kissed: If I recall correctly, 6.
Of girls I've kissed: 2.
Of CD's I own: I don't remember. I don't use them anymore...
Of scars on my body:
Scars that are there for years, 2. One on my left knee (bike accident) and one on my right breast (fall from a tree). Other than those, I have marks from time to time, graciously bestowed upon my skin by Her Cuteness (aka my cat).
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I tag everyone.
That's it then.
Hope everyone is well.
Thanks for taking the time to read my entry.
Take care and may the inspiration be with you!