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Lupineborn

You may say I'm a dreamer.
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Hello everyone


It has been such a long, long time since I was a regular here. Years.

I remember I used to have all these big ideas about the kind of art I want to make. I promised myself every time I would work towards it to make it. Series of drawings and paintings, or writing long, well versed stories.


After all this time, I think it is safe to say I was never going to do it. I wanted to create something and express myself in so fancy ways I was more fixed on the outcome rather than the process, and that resulted in poor art too. There was a time I was really talented at drawing, but not anymore. Maybe I'll get to it again someday, without all that pressure I put on myself in the past.


For now, I am content with simply putting my thoughts on paper now and then, and posting them here as poems. I'm not in the mood to write rhyming poems anymore, but if there is inspiration, I'll try it again sometime.


I have been too fixed on how my creations look or sound aesthetically, and some of them are beautiful and intense, but superficial at the end. I feel much more content writing down something as soon as it comes to my mind and posting it quickly, rather than overanalyzing it.


As the years have passed and I've changed a lot (gosh I'm 30 now), so have my motivations for art changed. Now I find music a more charming form of art to engage into, even if I'm still learning. But writing again really is good for me, after all this time.


The thing is, a lot changed in Deviantart too. My profile feels like some deserted island. People I used to follow or interact with, are gone. I'm wondering who is still here...


So, yeah. Thanks for stopping by, and checking up on me. I don't login often, but I'd love to see some old and new faces and their awesome creations here. 🙂


Take care!

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Mood: Excited as F*ck Excited Bounce 

Hello everyone!

It's been such a long time since I posted something here. A lot of things have happened, I've gone through some changes and phases, but I think my life is gonna take a steady route now, at least for the upcoming months. :) (Smile) 

Bullet; Purple About me

After a lot of searching for a job, going to countless interviews and doing my best to better my image and communication skills, I decided that this isn't going to lead me anywhere and I should consider my options for further education or start looking for job opportunities, thinking out of the box. Since all my efforts have been fruitless, it turns out luck smiled at last and I got the chance to start over by taking a completely different turn on my education and start studying on a Master's degree. There was a new program at my girlfriend's University and it was for free, so I decided to take my chances and go for it. Turns out, they accepted me, and here I am, starting over as a forester (-ish). Wink/Razz

"Technical works and exploitation of woody biomass in a sustainable way" is not  exactly what I had in mind but I believe I will be able to use this knowledge to contribute in something good.

Bullet; Purple About Art

Talking about thinking out of the box, and after all this time, it turns out it's not a good time to take commissions yet. I still have to better myself and find the style that truly represents me and helps me express my skills and my art. I decided to work on a long project of my own, which is going to take quite some time. I'm trying to sharpen my painting skills, since that's the art I'm really interested in producing (digital painting, not traditional), so this project helps me learn and get better. The way I have it in mind, it's gonna be a series of paintings with a common theme, which I'm going to upload when it's all done and ready. I'm not going to reveal any more information though, until a considerable amount of work has been completed.

Thank you for stopping by.

Hope everyone is doing fine!
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...well, guess who's back? :bademoticon: =P (Razz) 

I've been inactive for quite some time, it seems. At some point, I was thinking about deleting this account or starting a new one with a more professional/formal style... I constantly feel like I have to leave all the past deviations and style behind me in order to move forward, then I realized if I'm always waiting to feel satisfied with my skills in order to upload new things, I will never take the next step.

I haven't really produced any great artwork since the last time I uploaded stuff here, but I am working on several things behind the screen. Lately, I've been helping my girlfriend with a comic book project of hers. We've digitalized it and I've been using my digitizer to insert color in it, so I've practised for some time now.

After thinking and talking about it, I decided to take the next step and take commissions from now on. As I'm doing this for the first time, the prices will be pretty affordable. I'm still not sure how it will work out, but here's what I thought for a start:

Dot Bullet (My Purple) - F2U! Simple sketch - line art
Character:  3€
Location: 3 - 5€
Character + Background: 5 - 6€
Every additional character: 2€

Dot Bullet (My Purple) - F2U! Line art + simple color (with very simple shading) OR black and white shades
Character: 5€
Location: 7 - 10€
Character + Background: 10 - 12€
Every additional character: 3€

Dot Bullet (My Purple) - F2U! Line art + color shades (blended)
Character: 7€
Location: 10 - 15€
Character + Background: 10 - 18€
Every additional character: 4€

Dot Bullet (My Purple) - F2U! Later I'm gonna add prices for paintings (without line art).

The price range refers to the complexity of the art. I will accept payment as such: half of the money up front, and if you are satisfied with the work, you shall pay the rest after it is done.
The payment will be submitted through a bank account, which we will discuss in a pm about (as well as for the other details).

The prices may change over time, as I'll observe how much effort and resources it takes for each category. I will always let you know the changes, of course.

Contact me if you are interested. Thank you, guys. :) (Smile) 
 
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Since there's not much activity in my profile, I might as well do this. Tagged by :iconfoxyrainbow:


• Won something in the lottery?: It would be nice. But no. =P (Razz) 

• Snuck out of the house? : Nah.

• Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes.

 Had a computer crash?: Not on my current pc.

• Gotten lost in your city?: I'll just say one thing: God bless Google Maps. XD 

• Seen a shooting star?: No, unfortunately. :( (Sad) 

• Been to any other countries?: I've been to Italy. It was great. :D (Big Grin) 

• Had a serious surgery?: Nope, never.

• Stolen something important to someone else?: No.

• Solved a rubix cube?: I never got the chance to begin with (although I don't thing I would sove it anyway XD). 

• Gone out in public in your pajamas?: I don't recall, but I don't think so.

• Cried over a girl?
• Cried over a boy?

...I cry all the time. It's hard to tell at some point. XD 

• Hugged a random stranger?: I have hugged people I just met, but not a random stranger.

• Been in a fist fight?: Not yet. =P (Razz) 

• Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Lol hasn't happened yet.

• Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Nah.

• Sneaked into the opposite sex’s bathroom?: Nope.

• Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Yeah. We all thought it was gonna be a regular day at school, and then we found out that there wasn't gonna be any class cause it rained a lot the previous day, so some part of the building was damaged.

• Swore at your parents?: I don't remember, but I don't think so.

• Kicked a guy where it hurts?: Nope.

• Been to a casino?: No.

• Ran over an animal and killed it?: I don't drive yet. But when I do, I'll be super careful about such stuff. I'd rather damage my car than run over an animal.

• Broken a bone?: Nope, luckily.

• Gotten stitches?: No, though I have a small scar.

• Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Nope, and never gonna attempt that. XD 

• Made homemade muffins?: No but I've helped my girlfriend make such stuff.

• Bitten someone?: Yup. Meow :3 

• Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: Not yet. I have always wanted to go there but still haven't gotten the chance...



-- WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU --



• Brushed your teeth: Last night.

• Cried: The day before yesterday, I think. 

• Went to the bathroom:| (Blank Stare) 

• Saw a movie in a theatre: I think it was when "Thor: Ragnarok" was on.

• Read a book: I finished Paulo Coelho's "Brida" yesterday.

• Had a snow day: Last year. It's really sad that there still hasn't been any snow around this winter. :bademoticon: 

• Had a party: I've never had any parties at my place, and it's been years since I attended one.

• Went to a doctor:  ...years ago. I don't even remember. =P (Razz) 

• Tripped in front of someone: I don't remember but I am pretty sure it happened this week. I trip all the time.

• Went to the grocery store: A few days ago.

• Got sick: Sunday. :( (Sad) I am still a little feverish. 

• Got cursed: Non-jokingly...? Can't remember.

• Called someone: Last week.


-- DO YOU PREFER --


• Fruit/vegetables: Fruits.

• Black/white: Depends on my mood. I love both.

• Lights on/lights off: Lights on. (Not too brightly though)

• TV/movie: Movie.

• Body spray/lotion: Lotion.

• Cash/cheque: Cash.

• Pillows/blankets: Both.

• Headache/stomach ache: I hate both the same. Disbelief 

• Paint/charcoal: Paint.

• Chinese food/Mexican food: I love both, but I'm gonna go with Chinese food.

• Summer/winter: Winter! Love 

• Snow/rain: Snow. I am a dummy! 

• Fog/misty: Misty.

• Rock/rap: Rock, duh.

• Meat/vegetarian: Both. It depends on the meal and the way it's cooked.

• Chocolate/vanilla:  CHOCOLATE 

• Sprinkles/icing: Icing. :D (Big Grin) 

• Cake/pie: Cake!   Geometry Chocolate Cake 50x50 icon 

• Strawberries/blueberries: I don't think I've ever had blueberries. I like strawberries though.

• Ocean/swimming pool: Ocean if the water's clean enough, swimming pool if it's not crowded. I like both.

• Cookies/muffins:  Muffins. Icon - Muffin 

• Wallet/pocket: Pocket.

• Window/door: ...what?

• Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: I'll say Chaplin cause I don't know the other guy.

• Pink/purple: Purple. Although I like pink when it goes with purple or blue.

• Cat/dog: Love them both. (Okay, maybe cats a little more.)

• Long sleeve/short sleeve: Long sleeves. Heart

• Pants/shorts: Pants.

• Winter break/spring break: Winter break. Christmas and stuff...

• Spring/autumn: Autumn Fall leaf - F2U my favourite season.

• Clouds/clear sky: I have no preference.

• Moon/mars: ...two very different things, what's the point of the question? XD 

• Questions/Answers:| (Blank Stare) 

• War/Peace: ...why on earth would I ever prefer war.



-- LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP JAZZ~Music --

• Do you believe in love?: Yes. In all its forms.

• What's the most important kind of love for you?: All love is important.

• Have you ever been in love?: Yup.

• Been close to love?: Yes.

• If you have, with who?: Not many people. =P (Razz) 

• Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?: Yes.

• Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: ...are we still talking about the confession?

• Are you in a relationship?:  Yes.

• If so, for how long?:  A little longer than 13 months.

• Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: I believe all people can make things work out with everyone if they want to. I don't think there's only one person for each.

• What was your first kiss like?: Awkward and exciting and a little gross, cause he tasted like cigar. Roll Eyes 

• How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 17

• Do you think love is worth nothing?: Love is worth everything.

• Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex: Romantically? Nothing to be too excited about.

• If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: Not single, but I've been in relationships before this one.

• Have you ever been dumped?: No.

• Have you ever dumped someone?: Yes.

• Want: To get better soon.

• Need: A cough syrup. (Were we talking about romantic stuff? XD

• Love: Hammock's music.

• Hate: People who don't respect my limits.

• Feel: Tired.

• Did: ?

• Miss: Some things I used to do.

• Am annoyed by: Noise.

 Would rather: Being with my gf right now.

• Am tired of: Trying to think of appropriate answers to these short questions which aren't even questions. Wink/Razz 

• Will always:| (Blank Stare) 



-- MISCELLANEOUS --

• What is your favourite genre of music?: It really depends on my mood. The genres I mostly listen to are: power/doom/alternative metal, folklore/pagan themed music, epic/orchestral/uplifting soundtracks, ballads.

• What time is it now?: 21:51. (Or 9:51 pm).

• How much money do you have right now?: Not much.

• Are you hungry right now?: Nah I just ate.

• What are you doing right now?: I'm completing this quiz, obviously.

• Do you like the moon?: Of course. :D (Big Grin) 

• What are you going to do when you're done with this?: Not sure. Probably gonna watch a series or something.

• If you could have any magical power what would it be?:  Shapeshifting.



-- DO YOU THINK YOU ARE --



Funny?: I can be really funny at times, or really awkwardly failing at it.

Cool?
: I don't know.

Pretty?:  I've been told so.

Sarcastic?: Sometimes.

Lazy?
: Yeah. Sweating a little... 

Hyper?: Nah.

Friendly?: Yeah.

Evil?: Sometimes. XD  

Unforgettable?
:| (Blank Stare) 

Smart?
: I think so?

Strong?
: Physically, no. Mentally, maybe.

Talented?
: I think I am talented at some things, but I still have work to do.

Dorky?
: Yup.



-- WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD --



High: Shy.

LonelyThe Akon song.

Pen
: Pencil.

Flower
: Daisy.

Window: MS Windows. =P (Razz) 

Psycho: "Meaning of life" song by Disturbed.

Brain freeze
: Water ice.

Strange: Dr. Strange.

Sassy: A friend of mine who used that word a lot in the past.

Suffering: The fever I'm experiencing right now.

Art
: Traditional and digital painting.



-- WOULD YOU EVER --



• Sky dive?: Why not.

• Run away?: Nah.

• Curse at a teacher?: Haven't done that so far (in their face, I mean).

• Not take a shower for a week?: Nah.

• Ask someone out?: Yup.

• Unscrew your cellphone to see what's inside?: Lol no.

• Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: I've done it multiple times but I try to change that about myself.

• Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: Oh yeah.

• Go scuba diving?: Why not?

• Write a book?: I don't think I'm talented enough to attempt such a thing, but you never know.

• Assemble a computer?: No.

• Become a rock star?: Nah...

• Have a long-distance relationship?: Been there, done that. It sucks.

• Marry someone you don't know?:| (Blank Stare) 



-- LAST QUESTIONS -- 


• What kind of computer do you have?: ...could you be more specific?

• What grade/level of studies are you in? (if applicable): I've graduated from university.

• Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: Lol nope.

• How many posters do you have in your room? I have only one poster which was a gift from a friend, and several drawings made by my gf.

• Who else should take this quiz?: Everyone, knock yourselves out.
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Tagged by FoxyRainbow (thank you, hon Love
Just a chance to show I'm still alive. XD 


BIO


How old are you?
     
25.

What gender and pronouns do you identify with?
   
Female- she/her.

Your name?  
     
Lydia.

How social are you?

When I am with friends and people I feel comfortable with, I can be the most social and open-hearted person. It also depends on my mood, or finding someone interesting to socialize with.
Other than that, I appear shy and/or reserved to others.


ART


How long have you been on deviantART? (Old accounts included)

     
3 years.


What are your future plans for the site?


Hopefully have things to upload and time and inspiration for drawing/painting. 

Do you want to pursue a career in art?

Who knows... I would like to, but there's a lot to be done first.

On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate your art skills?

About 6 out of 10. Given that there are people who make art by drawing only simple lines, and then there are professional artists who blow your mind with their realistic art, I think I am pretty average in the whole spectrum (especially compared to the skill level I want to reach).

Do you ever plan on leaving deviantART?
   
I don't think so.

Who is your favorite visual artist?

My all time favourites are:

:iconjojoesart:
:iconaquasixio:
:iconsandara:

Chiyo Shy Icon Llama Emoji-10 (Shy) [V1] SHY  

Do you use a tablet or a mouse?

I've been using a tablet for sometime. Still trying to get used to it.
   
How long does it usually take you to complete your artwork?

Hours. Sometimes, days. (I can't really stay focused on a project for too long. Sweating a little... So I take long breaks. )

How well do you handle criticism?

Not well at all. But I'm working on it.     



RELATIONSHIPS


What is your sexuality/romantic preference?
     
Bisexual in general. 

Are you currently in a relationship?

Yes! Love Girly Love 


Is your partner/spouse a deviant? (If so, paste link to their profile here.)

Nah.

How long have you been together?

A little longer than 10 months.


TAG EIGHT PEOPLE HERE! NO EXCEPTIONS!


...you don't really have to do that, guys.

Hope everyone is well.
May the inspiration be with you!
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